Celebrating New Year Eve

It's probably too late to talk about new year eve. It is already January 25. But, after I recover my blog *I could not open it for quite some times* this is the first topic I would like to write. This topic brings me all the way back to December 31 last year, when my friends and I were planning on our new year eve party. The three of us, were sitting in a couch, thinking "what should we do?"

Last year, my friend and I spend our new year eve in my boarding house. We cooked some meals and ate them together. The food was delicious and we were having so much fun. We were watching the fireworks from the streets. There were a lot of fireworks, beautiful fireworks. And I took some pictures using my phone.

Here is the picture of the meals we cooked :D

So, this year we planned on doing something different. We would like to have a memorable night, some interesting event different from last year. So, we decided to dine in a mall and spend the new year eve there. We went to the mall early to avoid traffic jam. When we arrived, we went to a restaurant and started eating. After that, we were just walking around when I notice something. The place was rather quite, not many people were there. I was questioning why, this mall is usually so crowded with people in every events, so why not today? So, I decided to asked the security.

To our surprise, the security staff said that there would be no new year celebration here, because the mall was currently under some renovation. Such a heart breaking news! I was so sad, I wanted to do something, I wanted to spent the new year eve happily with my friends, it that too much to ask?

At this point, we had nothing to do, so we decided to stay, hoping that we can see the fireworks from the mall. I was so shocked when the restaurant where we were spending our time kicked us out because they were closing. I was like "this is freaking new year eve, can't you open up longer?"

I was mad so i asked my friends to go home instead. With the thought of this night could not get any worse, I turned my laptop on and took it to the living room, when my friends were waiting. We were just watching some Youtube videos and surfing on the internet when suddenly I heard a loud murmur from the crowd outside. It was my neighborhood, so I decided to join. There were also my flatmates there. We were chatting and greeting each other.

The counting started, the fireworks launched. Some jokes cracked, and some laughs heard. I started to think that probably it was not so bad, spending the new year eve this way. Well, at least I got to know more of my neighbors, and made some new friends. I was mesmerized by the fireworks, when one of my flatmates asked my why did not I take any pictures. I simply said I had a lot of fireworks picture from the last new year eve celebration.

I was startled from what I said. Yes, I did have a lot of fireworks picture in my phone. They were not much different from the fireworks I was seeing at that time. Nothing's changed. This thought escalated really quickly, until I was in a deep thought of what has changed and has not changed. I glanced at my friend, this has not changed, there were pictures in my head, about my friend and I spending time together, laughing and talking nonsense. I love it, I love our togetherness, it is priceless.

Then I realized, it was not the place, or the meals that made an event memorable. It was the people. It was my friends, who were laughing beside me, that made me feel that this night was not so bad. It was my friends that made me realized that we can be anywhere, doing anything, but as long as we were together, we will definitely be happy. After 7 years together, I just realized it that time. Perhaps, because I was taking it for granted. I was so stupid. For having such precious friends, it is something to be thankful of, is it not? :)

It's Heavy not Easy

I still remember, back in the good old days of High School, I had a fight with my bestfriend. It was bad and sad. I was having a hard time. We were fighting because of, I think ideology. Well, as my bestfiend I expected her to always be on my side. One day, I was mocked by my classmate, I wanted her to stand for me but she didn't. Instead she made it worse. I was so angry at her.

The problem solved few days later. We couldn't stand hating each other and finally broke the ice. We said sorry and hugged each other, we were crying and everyone else watching. The boys said "oh girls, why were you even fighting in the first place huh?" We laughed, case closed :)

In the middle of third grade, I was having a what-so-I-thought-a-deadly-ploblem with a girl in my class. Well, at that time, the problem seemed too hard to be handled, but if I thought about it now, it was, silly. We were fighting over a boy *I know right? I got the boy and she got the woe.

It was quite serious. The whole classmate knew about it and there was time when our fight got really worse. Like, in times when the teacher put us in the same group, it was so tense. I didn't like it, made everyone uncomfortable. My friend then thought of something. So, near the final examination, all the girls were sitting together in the class, like in a meeting. No boys are involved, we kicked them out from the class. In the meeting, we came to the fact that anyone actually had problem with others, it wasn't only about me and that girl. There was tears and confession, but after all, everything was clear. No one had any grudge anymore. I believe that was great, I meant, it was great that we can be honest, apologized, and forgiving before we went separated after the graduation.

Now, in college, another problem occurred. Yes, I knew that problem would always follow you, no matter where you are. This time, it was just hard. Maybe because I wrote this when I am facing it. Maybe I would consider it silly someday. What I knew was that, this problem couldn't be solved by sorry or hugs or gathering people together. This is way more complicated. These people are what's-so-called-haters this day. they just hate you no matter what you did. I haven't got any idea how to solve it. I don't know what to do.

Well, as it's said, Life goes on and gets so heavy not easy. So I guess this is what it takes of being alive. If it hurts, it means that we are human, not zombie. I believe, this problem will mature me and shape me into a better girl, probably a woman ;)